NEVER CROP A PICTURE FOR SOMEONE!!!
Mar 8, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fNCBum1wPdQ

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you guys good morning oh my gosh I am so
sorry that I am late on getting my vlog
up it has been one crazy crazy crazy
start of my morning I I needed to be
able to take some time and just focus on
a little bit with my vinylene I have a
shirt and a tote that I needed to finish
I have it my brain just went dead I have
a tumblr that I needed to do the final
epoxy on but I had to get all of my
vinyl cut this morning plus I have some
stuffies stuff these are stuffed animals
stuffy's that were ordered that I had to
get the final cut for them and so I just
woke up this morning and was like you
know what I'm just gonna sit down and
get this stuff out of the way and then I
will do my vlog because I just I haven't
had time and I know that these orders
have been patiently waiting and I
appreciate all of the patience you guys
are amazing thank you thank you I know
that it's been a little bit crazy and
hectic with my orders the last couple of
weeks just because I'm trying to get my
scheduling out ready to go I just really
need to start treating this as like a
job you know and I need to have times
where it's cut out and that's it and
I've tried that and it worked for a good
week and a half and then I don't know
what happened but I just fell off a fog
wagon
was like I do have to still press the
vinyl but that's not that doesn't take
me hardly anything it was it's more of
the designing and the cutting that takes
the longest and then the the ironing on
isn't hard at all
I have Susie by the C's tumbler on my
turner right now it is turned out
beautiful
I am so home so excited so excited for
her to see her final the final Cup when
it's done I'm not showing it right now
cuz it is on the Turner you probably
hear a noise that is my turner it is
talking back to me right now I don't
know why it's misbehaving but it is but
anyways yeah that is what is going on
here
what else did we have going on Ollie I
had he had prayer this morning so he had
taken off earlier I just was like just
playing catch-up just playing catch-up
but I did want to definitely come on do
our book reading so make sure you guys
are grabbing your books I have been
using my new tripod that I got for Mama
and I'm in until everybody right now
hands down this is the best tripod I
could ever ask for
I love this tripod and so I will
recognize I I would tell anybody and
everybody go get this outright tripod
this one's great it has the ring light
which you can't really see it unless I
look up it has the ring light hook to it
you can do like where is it at
now I'm gonna go for the lights but you
can make it brighter you can make it
darker all the way down to that you can
do different colors that one's kind of
like that's like a dark color I think
anyways I'm just playing with it that
one hurts my eyes though go back to the
other one there um so anyway so I was
just busy just busy that's what it all
comes down to is just being busy I want
to say thank you to everybody that
stopped by on my live last night I am so
sorry I don't know what was coding on
but at the very beginning when I started
I don't know why it was not letting
people write oh I was just like why is
going on I just want to talk so I'm glad
it got squared away and taken care of
that was a lot of fun though a lot of
fun um I'm coming up with Tuesday night
art Tuesday night sorry Thursday nights
topic so we will have that I will be
putting my first commercial out for my
Thursday live chat on Sunday so be
watching for that and that will it you
know have the details of like what we're
gonna be talking about what the
discussion is gonna be and that way it
gives you guys time to also you don't
think about what exactly it is that you
know I'm gonna be talking about and you
guys can prepare your stories of what to
bring to the table as well um so yeah I
am just I'm really excited um let's go
ahead and do our book reading really
quick well I have my book out yeah so we
are on February 5th this is going to
absolutely drive me nuts this turner it
has never been this loud but I can't
touch it cuz I have epoxy on the whole
thing so yeah good times
anyways we are experts at cropping
things out of photos that makes us look
bad maybe we should be just as diligent
about cropping people relationships and
things out of our lives that make us
feel badly about ourselves too
Wow
let's read that one again we are experts
at cropping things out of photos that
makes us look bad
maybe we should be just as diligent
about cropping people relationships and
things out of our lives that make us
feel badly about ourselves - Wow
you know it is true I mean how many of
us crop photos and you know dictate how
the photos gonna look you know like for
instance I know that there's people that
will petite I'm not so much of that type
of a person I don't know I never have
really been that type of a person that
felt the need to have to hide myself in
photos I don't know why I just never
have but I do know there are there are
people that will not take a picture
unless they have somebody standing in
front of them so then they are all
they're seen as their face well that's
cropping out your body because you're
ashamed of the way your body looks and
it's so sad because you shouldn't be
ashamed of the way your body looks and I
have so in the last probably four months
have come so far with accepting my body
the way it is I for the longest time
when before I really started working on
say my self-image but when I started
really working on accepting myself and
loving myself and falling in love with
myself
and being kind and compassionate to
myself I feel like before all of that I
would like purposely by like the longest
shirts that I could wear that word not
down to my ankles but you know at least
still show my pants but like down to my
knees because I didn't want my stomach
to show on the bottom part and you know
I would literally stand in front of
ollie every single time I get ready to
leave and turn sideways and be like can
you see my stomach hanging out and he'd
be like no baby I don't you know and I
would go and check the mirror four or
five six times before we left and I even
had a mirror going out of my garage that
I would stop and turn sideways if I even
seen an inch of the bottom of my stomach
I would run in the house and go change
and you know I think about it now and I
just think
self how sad that I was so ashamed of
myself why why was I ashamed
who was I trying to whose are trying to
please you know and I have worked on
this for so I've worked on this so hard
for just a few short months but I've
come to the point now where I'm not
going to crop my body or change the way
that I'm dressing or you know look a
certain way to please others or to make
people want to be my friend if you don't
want to be my friend because I have a
hanging stomach or if you don't want to
be my friend because I have you know a
fat face then I don't need you to be in
the picture which the picture would be
my life and that's the same goes with
others I just it makes me so sad when
I'll hear people getting ready to get
put on hold on you know because they
don't want to show them true selves and
or you know they take the picture and
they you know Photoshop it and photo
crop it and do all this stuff and add
makeup to it and stuff and it's like why
why why do you have to change your
appearance just because others the
society and I everything else in return
why not start looking at that as your as
your cropping your picture to please
others why don't you start cropping your
life to please yourself and the ones
that are cropped out of that picture are
the ones that don't need to be in that
picture which is your life and so that
just rings a lot of a lot of true facts
to me because I know that there's been
people in my life that were kind of you
know a little bit of a shame to walk
with me or didn't want to go to this you
know a restaurant with me because you
know maybe it would look kind of funny
like why are they going to the
restaurant with me like I need to you
know because fat people don't need to
eat fat people they don't deserve to
have food so you know why why is she at
a restaurant or you know so I mean
little by little I have winged those
people out of my life though that now I
don't I don't hang with people that
don't accept me for me I don't try to
portray to be somebody I'm not just to
crop the picture to look better for
somebody else like I am Who I am and now
I'll leave the house and there are times
up my stomach's hanging out a little bit
it doesn't show it's my pants but you
know why if you don't like it turn your
face turn your face I'm not asking you
to look I mean but I'm a human being
that's my body and I love it and I love
my body do I want to change the things
on myself of course I do
I think anybody that says that they
don't is kind of not being very truthful
I mean everybody looks at themselves and
see flaws that they want to change our
wish that was different I mean that's
just being a human but if you can learn
to just embrace yourself though and love
yourself and just keep your picture the
way it is rather than try and crop it to
make it look different or appear
different you'll come so much further in
life than you could ever imagine that
Turner is really really driving me nuts
right now I have never heard it that
louder Suzy your your cup is talking
back to me and this is Suzy by the sea
I don't get this I do not get this
tumblr are the Turner not tumblr um but
yeah I just I'm really I'm learning to
everyday take the day that I wake up and
embrace everything about it whether it
be my body where I'm at in life you know
I'm not perfect I'll never ever ever
meant to be perfect I will always have
my flaws I will always have things in my
life that I need to work on our fix or
change or learn to accept you know I
think that that's just part of being a
human being and being on this earth but
you know what the time on this earth is
so short why not live it to your best
ability embrace what you have and just
love life you know I've given up trying
to live my life to please others I can't
do that anymore you know there was a
comment posted on my one of my videos I
don't remember which one I'm not gonna
pull it up because it really is
irrelevant to me but um you know the
person was trying to come across as
being kind and you know and I appreciate
that but they said you know why why
allow your husband to make you dress
this way or why do you change for your
husband when your husband should be so
you know darn proud of to be with you
and you know I step back and I look at
the whole picture and you know the thing
is is that I've never changed my parents
for my husband never when I very first
got married to my husband when I very
first got marriage Ollie I was a tank
top where I never wore shorts cuz I just
don't like shorts generally I mean I'll
wear him in the house but I mean other
than that I don't I've never really been
one to wear shorts outside the house but
I'll wear like the capris flip-flops
tank tops
things like that um my hair always up
it's how I dressed that's how I dressed
when I went to Egypt the day that I
chose to change my appearance wasn't
because my husband made me change my
appearance I was married to my husband
for four years Briar to me choosing to
embrace Islam as a religion that I chose
for me I don't think that me dressy
modestly wearing a sweater wearing my
hijab that that to me is not altering my
my dress code because I'm ashamed of the
person I was but I it's because I
embrace the person I have become and
that has no control of what my husband
has said or done because my husband's
never said anything to me I think that
as time has gone on and I have been
converted into Islam for five years now
I think my husband would be kind of
shocked if I decided to go outside the
home with you know you know not my hijab
on I would never go out of my house with
not being covered but you know what I'm
saying like I think he would be shocked
because I did this because I wanted to
not because he ever made me so I think
he'd be shocked and kind of confused as
to why all of a sudden I felt the need
to change was it because I again I felt
the need I needed a change because
others were making comments about my
appearance or would it be that I chose
to change and take off my hijab because
I wanted to UM personally I love wearing
my hijab actually I love wearing my
hijab I love dressing it up I love
decorating them I love everything about
them and so for me I love it and I
embrace it that's part of me this is all
part of me but it's sad that some people
still have the mindset that you know
others can't make choices for themselves
because in society it's so known that
you live your life for others instead of
allowing people to live life for
themselves so why couldn't that comment
have been
you're so beautiful and I'm just curious
us to know why you decided to put on the
hijab is it because of the choice that
you made - you know convert to Islam and
you know would you be willing to share
your story not jump to the conclusion
that I don't have a right to do say or
you know wear what I want and crop my
own picture the way that I want to crop
it but that I cropped my picture to
please my husband does that make any
sense I hope it does so it's just you
know that that's kind of the moral of my
message today is you guys just learn to
start embracing who you are for what you
have don't try and change your life for
others don't try and change your dress
code because it's gonna make others
happy if you want to wear what you want
to wear wear it if you want to wear your
hair the way you want to wear it wear it
but don't go and do your hair
differently because somebody says
something or don't try and change your
clothing style because somebody said
something your sexuality your religion
your life the way that you parent the
way that you are as a human being don't
change yourself just because of others
crop your picture for your own self and
the ones that don't accept or embrace
what you are and who you are and for
what your picture is crop them out
because they're the ones that are making
you feel bad about yourself and nobody
should feel bad about themselves that is
the one thing that I wish that I could
promote all across this world is
self-acceptance because I think it all
starts with self-acceptance before you
can go on to accept anything else if you
can't accept yourself you're never ever
ever gonna be able to accept anything
else so it starts within yourself first
and then you can go on out into the
world and you start accepting things
other than that but just know that I've
been there I'm there now I'm a work in
progress as I always say I'm always
trying to better myself in this area
because it's something I suffer with all
the time but I'm getting stronger at it
and I'm starting to accept Who I am and
for what I am and I know that it's only
a matter of time before I can perfect
and I can walk out with my crown on my
head and say I am the most worthy of I
love myself 100% and walk with pride
because that's what it should be anyways
it is 2:40 I am going to edit this video
get this vlog up I am waiting for my
tumblr to not have to be on the Turner's
so that I can shut that Turner off and
restart it back up but take care of you
guys
I will check in with you here and a
little bit I hope you guys are having a
wonderful wonderful day and a great
start to your weekend and I will talk to
you in a little bit
